This is fun: it's my convo with Julie!

Background: She kept messaging me for no reason and attacking me and then brought kelly into it, i responded each time and very rudely when she decided to bring my family into it...this is after she decided she wanted to "work it out" so i told her to im me

Margaritavil85 (11:28:31 PM): hi
Margaritavil85 (11:29:00 PM): ok..so did u get that last message?
Margaritavil85 (11:29:42 PM): are you gonna talk to me?
dirrtygurrty (11:30:07 PM): yes, sorry, i was actually replying
dirrtygurrty (11:30:13 PM): didnt realize i had an im
Margaritavil85 (11:30:20 PM): oh, ok, sorry
dirrtygurrty (11:30:31 PM): its okay
Margaritavil85 (11:30:58 PM): so, seriously, I'm just not sure why you seem to hate me? what did i do?
dirrtygurrty (11:31:00 PM): for the record, no matter what, i do not edit my blogs...so my blog wont be coming down, only because its pretty much my official rule
dirrtygurrty (11:31:13 PM): i dont hate you
Margaritavil85 (11:31:36 PM): I dont think thats cool though to have that up there about me
dirrtygurrty (11:31:38 PM): i had no feelings toward you one way or the other until you messaged me saying i was a bitch and i would get no where in life
dirrtygurrty (11:31:46 PM): i dont think it was cool to send it
Margaritavil85 (11:32:26 PM): well why did you treat me like shit when we were together then? and what about when I said "hi" to you when you were talking to Cindy?
Margaritavil85 (11:32:45 PM): I was trying to be nice...
dirrtygurrty (11:33:30 PM): i was confused, i was pretty sure you hated me so I was confused, but when i said that i felt that way about you: 1 i didnt mean the whole time and 2 i said it only to make her feel better
Margaritavil85 (11:33:52 PM): thats all..and when you said something along the lines of wanting to "kill me" or something like that?
dirrtygurrty (11:33:58 PM): no
Margaritavil85 (11:33:58 PM): really?
dirrtygurrty (11:34:24 PM): she said that she didnt know if she wanted to hug tisha or kill her and I said i knew what she meant because i had felt the same way about you at times
Margaritavil85 (11:34:25 PM): why did you treat me that way when we dated?
dirrtygurrty (11:34:44 PM): you really should have checked your facts before you decided to berate me for no reason
Margaritavil85 (11:34:50 PM): why though? what did i do to you?
dirrtygurrty (11:34:51 PM): the way i treated you?
Margaritavil85 (11:34:57 PM): yeah
dirrtygurrty (11:35:08 PM): ...explain
Margaritavil85 (11:35:32 PM): why would you say you even wanted to kill me? what did I do that was that bad?
Margaritavil85 (11:35:49 PM): was I ever a bitch to you?
dirrtygurrty (11:36:03 PM): i didnt say i wanted to kill you
dirrtygurrty (11:36:40 PM): i was not happy in the relation ship for a number of reasons that quite frankly had little to do with you
Margaritavil85 (11:36:54 PM): well then I guess that I took it wrong, but thats what it sounded like to me...
Margaritavil85 (11:37:02 PM): well why would you stay with me?
Margaritavil85 (11:37:07 PM): why?
dirrtygurrty (11:37:08 PM): if you feel that i treated you unfairly, i apologize, but i wasn't aware that was the case as not long after we broke up you met me at my accident
dirrtygurrty (11:37:13 PM): i didnt, remember?
Margaritavil85 (11:38:12 PM): yeah I know, but you shouldn't have evn bothered staying with me for the month we dated..bacuse you totally led me on...
Margaritavil85 (11:38:38 PM): and if I had known I was just some rebound..we would have never dated
dirrtygurrty (11:39:11 PM): it was a month, thats not a long time and it was TWO years ago, i would think you would be over it by now
Margaritavil85 (11:40:18 PM): I'm sooo over it...I just thought that in 2 YEARS you could talk to me like a human being..all I did was say "hi"..you took it from there
dirrtygurrty (11:40:55 PM): i said hi
Margaritavil85 (11:40:55 PM): this is stupid..I wont waste your time Kathy...
dirrtygurrty (11:41:10 PM): what i said to cindy and i will not say this again i said to make her feel better
Margaritavil85 (11:41:12 PM): lets just get over it, ok?
dirrtygurrty (11:41:18 PM): i was and am over it
dirrtygurrty (11:41:40 PM): i have no feelings toward whatsoever, except for the anger over the myspace messages
Margaritavil85 (11:42:20 PM): well you shouldn't have said it at all..thats all, because even if it was to make her feel better it was rude..dont you agree?
dirrtygurrty (11:42:27 PM): no
dirrtygurrty (11:42:40 PM): because i was telling a friend that i had felt the same way she did
Margaritavil85 (11:42:56 PM): well why then? explain that to me
Margaritavil85 (11:43:36 PM): if you have no reason, then thats bullshit..b/c I never did one fucking bad thing to you EVER
Margaritavil85 (11:43:51 PM): atleast not while we were together...
dirrtygurrty (11:44:03 PM): it wasnt about you, clearly one of us isnt over the month we were dating
dirrtygurrty (11:44:05 PM): and it isnt me
Margaritavil85 (11:44:11 PM): I didn't deserve it
dirrtygurrty (11:44:16 PM): i apologized
Margaritavil85 (11:44:22 PM): omg..i was over you a long time ago..
dirrtygurrty (11:44:34 PM): then why keep bringing it up?
Margaritavil85 (11:44:57 PM): then there is no reason for you being like that to me?
Margaritavil85 (11:45:03 PM): or still being like that to me..
Margaritavil85 (11:45:35 PM): I dont care what it was about, you didnt have any right to say that at times you wanted to kill me..
dirrtygurrty (11:45:36 PM): i dont remember treating you all that badly and the reason that i was and am treating you like this is because of the messages you sent me, i have made that clear more than once
dirrtygurrty (11:45:48 PM): thats still not what i said
Margaritavil85 (11:46:02 PM): ok fuck it..i give in, u win
dirrtygurrty (11:46:09 PM): whatever
Margaritavil85 (11:46:28 PM): just leave me alone and I'll leave you alone, ok? truce?
dirrtygurrty (11:46:42 PM): i have said that to you how many times already?
Margaritavil85 (11:46:53 PM): I understand you dont care about me and never have
Margaritavil85 (11:47:23 PM): see Kathy, why do u have to be rude? *sighs*
dirrtygurrty (11:47:30 PM): we arent having a pity party for you now and starting the "you never cared about me" "yes i did blah blah blah"
dirrtygurrty (11:47:41 PM): what was rude?
Margaritavil85 (11:49:35 PM): mevermind..like i said..its over with..I wont talk to you..dont talk to me..its over...dont talk about me to Cindy either, because she's also my friend...just give it up..you'll never give a shit..and its not a pity party its the truth and how i feel..thats all
dirrtygurrty (11:50:10 PM): because you want me to pity you
dirrtygurrty (11:50:17 PM): i dont and havent talked to cindy about you
Margaritavil85 (11:50:33 PM): just atleast give me the satisfaction of knowing you dont hate me, dislike me or anything of that nature...
Margaritavil85 (11:50:42 PM): see why are you being like this?
dirrtygurrty (11:50:55 PM): being like what?
Margaritavil85 (11:50:59 PM): so truce?
dirrtygurrty (11:51:01 PM): i dont hate you, nor do i like you
Margaritavil85 (11:51:03 PM): truce?
dirrtygurrty (11:51:15 PM): theres nothing to truce about
Margaritavil85 (11:51:47 PM): well you have nothing to dislike me for..and you never have, except for the shit that has happened in the past few weeks
dirrtygurrty (11:52:03 PM): which is the only feeling i have toward you right now
dirrtygurrty (11:52:12 PM): and i have said that, repeatedly
Margaritavil85 (11:52:12 PM): I didnt do shit to you, EVER, so there is no reason for you not to liek me Kathy
dirrtygurrty (11:52:26 PM): i just said i do not dislike you
Margaritavil85 (11:52:42 PM): look at what you typed
dirrtygurrty (11:52:50 PM): im looking at it
Margaritavil85 (11:52:54 PM): you must have spelled it wrong
dirrtygurrty (11:53:00 PM): no
dirrtygurrty (11:53:40 PM): to what are you referring?
Margaritavil85 (11:53:43 PM): you said "i dont hate you, nor do i like you"
Margaritavil85 (11:53:54 PM): so i guess that means you dislike me
Margaritavil85 (11:54:02 PM): right???
dirrtygurrty (11:54:11 PM): right, i'm neutral, i dont hate you and i dont like you, i have no feeling toward you either way
Margaritavil85 (11:54:26 PM): thats wonderful...
Margaritavil85 (11:54:30 PM): same here
dirrtygurrty (11:54:32 PM): i think i have been pretty clear on that the whole time
dirrtygurrty (11:54:47 PM): then why are you continuously attacking me?
dirrtygurrty (11:55:02 PM): and my family?
Margaritavil85 (11:55:08 PM): well i guess people alwas get slapped in the face when they try to be nice to their ex's
dirrtygurrty (11:55:28 PM): no, cindy and i are very good friends and we dated twice
Margaritavil85 (11:55:45 PM): b/c ur sister wrote shit about me on your blog...she doesnt know me, nor the conversation we had..or should i say the conversation you had with Cindy
dirrtygurrty (11:56:05 PM): she knows that you attacked me, thats all a sister needs to know to defend her sister
Margaritavil85 (11:56:09 PM): well I guess I'm just some piece of shit to you then..because you're nice to her
dirrtygurrty (11:56:16 PM): because shes nice to me
Margaritavil85 (11:56:18 PM): and not to me
dirrtygurrty (11:56:24 PM): and you aren't
Margaritavil85 (11:56:28 PM): I WAS NICE TO YOU!!!!!!
dirrtygurrty (11:56:33 PM): i said hi back
Margaritavil85 (11:56:34 PM): yes i was, thats bullshit
dirrtygurrty (11:56:53 PM): saying hi when we havent talked in two years isnt nice its weird
dirrtygurrty (11:56:59 PM): theres no reason for us to talk
Margaritavil85 (11:56:59 PM): yes and you also said that other bullshit..wheter it was to make her feel ebtter or not...u had NO right to say it
Margaritavil85 (11:57:15 PM): no its mature
dirrtygurrty (11:57:15 PM): i can say what i want when i want and will to make a friend feel better
dirrtygurrty (11:57:27 PM): clearly
Margaritavil85 (11:57:33 PM): see gurrty..you havent changed not one bit
dirrtygurrty (11:57:35 PM): and you epitomize maturity
Margaritavil85 (11:57:37 PM): not at all
dirrtygurrty (11:57:47 PM): yeah, but i'm okay with that
Margaritavil85 (11:58:05 PM): why the hell do you have that attitude?
Margaritavil85 (11:58:17 PM): do you realize what you sound like?
Margaritavil85 (11:58:45 PM): its stupid...really it is...
dirrtygurrty (11:58:51 PM): someone who was attacked for helping a friend by someone she hadn't talked to in over 2 years
Margaritavil85 (11:59:07 PM): you attacked me first hun
Margaritavil85 (11:59:11 PM): tit for tat
dirrtygurrty (11:59:13 PM): dont call me hun
dirrtygurrty (11:59:18 PM): and no i didnt
Margaritavil85 (11:59:20 PM): give what you get
Margaritavil85 (11:59:22 PM): hun
dirrtygurrty (11:59:31 PM): dont call me hun
Margaritavil85 (11:59:37 PM): hun
dirrtygurrty (11:59:37 PM): we are not friends
Margaritavil85 (11:59:42 PM): fuck this...
Margaritavil85 (11:59:47 PM): forget it
Margaritavil85 (11:59:50 PM): fuck this
dirrtygurrty (11:59:56 PM): thats what i have been saying
Margaritavil85 (11:59:58 PM): peace
dirrtygurrty (12:00:03 AM): no, not so much
Margaritavil85 (12:00:11 AM): your a bitch and thats never going to change
Margaritavil85 (12:00:21 AM): see how afr you get in life being that way..
dirrtygurrty (12:00:23 AM): not toward you apparently
Margaritavil85 (12:00:30 AM): far*
Margaritavil85 (12:00:49 AM): get the fuck over yourself..and try to be kind to people who are kind to you
dirrtygurrty (12:00:51 AM): you know, i like where i am, i have a good job, a guy i really like, im gong to get a place with my sister, im happy
dirrtygurrty (12:00:56 AM): i am
Margaritavil85 (12:01:23 AM): well thats fucking great and I'm happy for you..but why dont you have many friends?
Margaritavil85 (12:01:32 AM): why do people dislike you?
dirrtygurrty (12:01:35 AM): who says i dont have many friends?
dirrtygurrty (12:01:41 AM): people don't dislike me
Margaritavil85 (12:01:53 AM): beause you talk to people like shit gurrty
dirrtygurrty (12:02:04 AM): that doesnt answer my question
Margaritavil85 (12:02:06 AM): i know a hand full of people who dislike you
Margaritavil85 (12:02:11 AM): a big hand full
dirrtygurrty (12:02:15 AM): why are you under the impression that i dont have friends
dirrtygurrty (12:02:19 AM): oooh a big handful
dirrtygurrty (12:02:22 AM): thats amazing
dirrtygurrty (12:02:36 AM): there are lots of people who dont like me and there are 3 times that many who do
dirrtygurrty (12:03:07 AM): lots of people dont like people like me, who tell it like it is instead of pretending to be okay with stuff so they dont make waves
Margaritavil85 (12:03:20 AM): see what a bitch you are I dont even know why I wasted my fucking time trying to recincile this with you.....omg please tell me why anybody would like you if you talk to people like this..or am i just the lucky one?
dirrtygurrty (12:03:39 AM): oh you are definitely not a lucky one
Margaritavil85 (12:03:46 AM): dont fucking speak my name to anyone..dont talk to me, message me, or blog about me
Margaritavil85 (12:03:53 AM): see you're a fucking cunt
Margaritavil85 (12:03:57 AM): and laways have been
Margaritavil85 (12:04:01 AM): fuck you bitch
dirrtygurrty (12:04:07 AM): i dont, dont and i will blog about this because it happened in my life, thats what a blog is for
Margaritavil85 (12:04:26 AM): you're as immature as they come
Margaritavil85 (12:04:32 AM): seriously
dirrtygurrty (12:04:35 AM): clearly you have me beat on that one
Margaritavil85 (12:04:52 AM): you cant even have a conversation without being a cunt
dirrtygurrty (12:05:07 AM): not to someone who treats me like one, no
Margaritavil85 (12:05:18 AM): why am i stressing on you?
Margaritavil85 (12:05:31 AM): omg i didnt fucking treat you like shit...get the fuck over that
dirrtygurrty (12:05:33 AM): i dont know
Margaritavil85 (12:05:41 AM): you're nobody to me...
Margaritavil85 (12:05:45 AM): never will be
dirrtygurrty (12:05:47 AM): i was never 'under that"
dirrtygurrty (12:05:50 AM): and im okay with that
dirrtygurrty (12:05:55 AM): we hve covered this i think
Margaritavil85 (12:06:05 AM): im glad the feeling is mutual
Margaritavil85 (12:06:19 AM): so ok...write about me in your blog...
dirrtygurrty (12:06:25 AM): i'm pretty sure i made that clear a while ago
Margaritavil85 (12:06:27 AM): i will love to read it..
dirrtygurrty (12:06:42 AM): i write about everything that happens to me in my blog, thats what a blog is for
Margaritavil85 (12:07:07 AM): *shakes head side to side*
Margaritavil85 (12:07:23 AM): you dont get it...
dirrtygurrty (12:07:44 AM): what dont i get, exactly?
Margaritavil85 (12:08:00 AM): its not cool for the whole world to read about what happens, especially not when IM involved..dont fucking put my name on your blog, got it?????
dirrtygurrty (12:08:16 AM): i will do what i want, thats why its MY BLOG
Margaritavil85 (12:08:18 AM): cause, thats immature
Margaritavil85 (12:08:43 AM): how old are you? 3
Margaritavil85 (12:09:00 AM): lmao and it makes me fucking laugh..telling me im fat
dirrtygurrty (12:09:00 AM): no, immature is bringing someones 15 yr old sister into a fight that was ridiculous to begin with
Margaritavil85 (12:09:08 AM): so are YOU!!!!!
dirrtygurrty (12:09:17 AM): im okay with what i look like
Margaritavil85 (12:09:23 AM): so am I
dirrtygurrty (12:09:30 AM): i know im hot and i know lots of people who agree with me
Margaritavil85 (12:09:32 AM): im beautiful inside and out
dirrtygurrty (12:09:38 AM): riiight
Margaritavil85 (12:09:40 AM): WHAT!!?????
Margaritavil85 (12:09:55 AM): omg im so much prettier than you
Margaritavil85 (12:09:57 AM): by far
Margaritavil85 (12:10:00 AM): by far
dirrtygurrty (12:10:26 AM): im not comparing
dirrtygurrty (12:10:30 AM): because I dont care
Margaritavil85 (12:10:50 AM): this is sooo stupid..I should have known that I couldnt talk to you like an adult..and I am comparing...
dirrtygurrty (12:11:07 AM): go for it, but thats what children do
Margaritavil85 (12:11:22 AM): beauty is wonderful thing..especially when ur beautifl inside
Margaritavil85 (12:11:28 AM): beautiful*
Margaritavil85 (12:11:39 AM): you'll never have that....
Margaritavil85 (12:11:42 AM): NEVER
dirrtygurrty (12:11:46 AM): you know, its funny, because thats what ugly people say
Margaritavil85 (12:11:54 AM): so do what u want in your little immature blog...
Margaritavil85 (12:12:04 AM): lmao..have u seen me, my pictures
Margaritavil85 (12:12:12 AM): im fucking gorgeous
Margaritavil85 (12:12:35 AM): c/mon admit that i am..cause you know its true
Margaritavil85 (12:12:44 AM): you cant deny it
Margaritavil85 (12:12:46 AM): see
Margaritavil85 (12:12:48 AM): lol
Margaritavil85 (12:12:53 AM): u know its the truth
Margaritavil85 (12:13:04 AM): u lost something wonderful...
Margaritavil85 (12:13:08 AM): u lost it..
dirrtygurrty (12:13:10 AM): i havent because i care so little about you in fact that i have not gone on your profile
dirrtygurrty (12:13:21 AM): i didnt want it and i gave it away
Margaritavil85 (12:13:56 AM): well from the pic u have seen, u know im pretty
dirrtygurrty (12:14:10 AM): i just see it an go, great, she messaged me again
Margaritavil85 (12:14:30 AM): and u dated me, so you know what I look like and how pretty i am
Margaritavil85 (12:14:32 AM): lol
dirrtygurrty (12:14:42 AM): i also dumped you
dirrtygurrty (12:14:48 AM): that might be a clue for you
Margaritavil85 (12:14:50 AM): yup
Margaritavil85 (12:15:01 AM): lol well it wasnt bause im not pretty
dirrtygurrty (12:15:30 AM): well i didnt stay with you cuz you were hot, either, did i?
Margaritavil85 (12:15:41 AM): its beause you're a bitch and lead ppl on to believe you like them
Margaritavil85 (12:15:46 AM): ooo i am hot
Margaritavil85 (12:15:51 AM): fucking hot
dirrtygurrty (12:16:03 AM): im glad you think that, why are you trying to convince me that you are hot?
dirrtygurrty (12:16:51 AM): or are you trying to convince yourself?
Margaritavil85 (12:16:54 AM): so anyways..you have a great life..im not trying to convince you..you already know..lol..shower please..give someone that atleast..why do you think I never went down on you????????
Margaritavil85 (12:17:11 AM): beacuse a whoer was far and few
Margaritavil85 (12:17:17 AM): shower*
Margaritavil85 (12:17:29 AM): now yes maybe thats immature...
dirrtygurrty (12:17:34 AM): yes it is
dirrtygurrty (12:17:43 AM): on top of this entire conversation
Margaritavil85 (12:17:57 AM): but please save others noses...cause mine is damaged....see you know its nasty down there...
Margaritavil85 (12:18:04 AM): you dont deny it
dirrtygurrty (12:18:21 AM): theres no point in dignifying that by defending my vagina
Margaritavil85 (12:18:23 AM): thats sad..u know they have stuff for that..
dirrtygurrty (12:18:40 AM): im sure you would know
Margaritavil85 (12:18:50 AM): its gross...do you shower now?
Margaritavil85 (12:18:54 AM): how would i know?
Margaritavil85 (12:19:00 AM): you had vd not me
dirrtygurrty (12:19:21 AM): i dont know, but clearly you are trying to inform me, so you must have an intimate knowledge
Margaritavil85 (12:19:47 AM): lol i am a woman and do shop...
dirrtygurrty (12:19:57 AM): thats wonderful for you
Margaritavil85 (12:20:05 AM): and not for you
dirrtygurrty (12:20:14 AM): im doing just fine actually
Margaritavil85 (12:20:21 AM): really?
Margaritavil85 (12:20:32 AM): nothing fishy goin on
Margaritavil85 (12:20:44 AM): thats great..
dirrtygurrty (12:20:44 AM): (guy I'm with's response to you): she never went down on you?....hmm, her loss
Margaritavil85 (12:21:24 AM): well tell him to be warned..DANGER THE PUSSY IS NASTY!!!!!!!!!!
Margaritavil85 (12:21:32 AM): bye bitch..fuck off
dirrtygurrty (12:22:00 AM): see ya later
dirrtygurrty (12:22:04 AM): no, hopefully not
Margaritavil85 (12:22:13 AM): never in a million years
Margaritavil85 (12:22:17 AM): lmao..wash!!!!!
dirrtygurrty (12:22:20 AM): good,then we are agreed
Margaritavil85 (12:22:21 AM): wash wash wash
dirrtygurrty (12:22:30 AM): you are really lame
Margaritavil85 (12:22:33 AM): whore..watch out for that vd
Margaritavil85 (12:22:39 AM): lol..u r too
Margaritavil85 (12:22:44 AM): and a bitch and a cunt
Margaritavil85 (12:22:48 AM): and all of the above
dirrtygurrty (12:22:52 AM): im proud to be a bitchand a cunt thank you
Margaritavil85 (12:22:59 AM): wash wash wash..shower shower shower
dirrtygurrty (12:23:11 AM): is that all you have to say,really?
dirrtygurrty (12:23:18 AM): because its getting old
Margaritavil85 (12:23:36 AM): no..there is a lot more..but you're such a bitch I cant evn talk to you
Margaritavil85 (12:23:45 AM): well so is that rank pus
Margaritavil85 (12:23:50 AM): its smells old
dirrtygurrty (12:24:02 AM): right, clearly theres so much that all you have to say is i need to shower
dirrtygurrty (12:24:09 AM): which isnt even a real insult
Margaritavil85 (12:24:19 AM): shower
dirrtygurrty (12:24:27 AM): still not a real insult
dirrtygurrty (12:24:53 AM): a real insult would be to tell someone that even people they consider friends think they are nuts and need help
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This is when she blocked me, which I'm pretty sure she did because she didn't think she would get the last word in any other way.

Sorry it's so long!

So Marlon got all curious and decided to look for my blog (not that it's difficult, but I specifically asked him NOT to read it) and he did, I, naturally, was angry. He has now promised that he will not read it, he swore on his laptop (if he reads it, I get his laptop!). Whatever, It's not really a big deal, but when I specifically ask you not to do something, it would be great if you didn't, and if you, don't tell me you did it?

In other news, last night was fun, I think he has potential, so we will have to practice, lol! I don't remember what else I was going to say, tally ho!

Got it!

Takin' marlon's V tonight....

So I'm going to hang out with Marlon again! I'm excited...we are supposed to hang out tonight after he gets off work!

I'm also going to hang out with Cindy today, she's been kinda down (other than the ana thing, right Cin?) so today's looking like a good day. I'm really glad she and I are still friends, actually. I think it's been good for both of us.

Oh and I got my Hurr did! It's really red right now, but it should fade in a few days. I like it! I also got it cut, which I also like, it looks cool, so I'm happy about it!

So I hung out with marlon again today! I don't think It will take long to remedy the virgin situation, so I'm not worried, lol! We had fun today, hopefully we'll hang out again soon.

The babies are getting so big! They're starting to be fuzzy and show what their colors are going to be!! Basically all grey and white, with different patterns, soo cute!!!

Okay, so tonight Marlon and I went out! We went to IKEA and then BORDERS...then we made out in his car! It was great! And I found out he's a virgin...on a technicality...lol, I miss Nadia! So that kinda sucks, but oh well. Good times, though!

I told Doug today that I wasn't going to see him. I'm happy about it, specifically since I didn't like his reaction. Is it weird that my thought was, but I like marlon? I don't know, but I said, you know what, I'm having doubts about going, I don't doubt things, so I don't think I should go. He says

"I know you are going to have sex with this hot guy and have a great time"
"I really don't think I am. If I change my mind, I'll let you know."
"I've already changed mine"
"Fuck you, too, then"

and I feel good about it!

I'm having a GREAT week!! (I don't mean that sarcastically, by the way)

I talked to matt today, apparently he called on friday, but he called my work, so i didnt get it until today. I called him back, though, still in shock that he had actually called. We talked for a while, it's clear we still miss each other, but both of our lives are going well, so I'm really happy for both of us. He asked me how things were going I said they were going well, I can think about him now without wanting to cry...most of the time and that I have started hanging out with someone I really like and he said that that was good for me.

He's probably going to come up during the summer to help his brother-in-law move out to cali, so I'll probably see him then. When we were done talking, though, I really thought, wow, that was good. We are both happy, for the first time in a long time, so that's good :-)


So now I have some closure on that and can start fresh with marlon, hopefully!

See, I just need to stop being stupid!!


Marlon and I are hanging out again on Wednesday! Yay!


In other awesome news, Crackwhore and the Pimp are parents, we aren't sure if they had them yesterday or friday night, but how great is that? There are at least five of them, but we realy aren't sure as one of the parents are keeping them warm most of the time. Yay!!

I think I overthink things sometimes....someone seems distant once and I think it's the end of the world...I should know better than this...I dont really know what to say in regards to this, so that's it...


I'm rereading the Half Blood Prince, I want to find out what the horcruxes are...I hope i can because it would be GREAT!! But if I can't i know that I will enjoy/am enjoying the book, so it is all good either way

Marlon came over today! I really freakin like him...I don't know what I wanna do, though. We kissed a couple of times...he tried to get to 2nd, i said no....and we watched Dogma!

holy crap, I think Marlon still likes me! How crazy is that? he added me on myspace the other day and said he didnt think i'd remember him,like thats possible, right? We' talked for almost 5 hours tonight and I still dig him....who knows?

TRY THIS: Write different statements intended towards 10 different people that you would never say to their faces or something you wish you would have said...But never tell them it was about them...

1. Hi, I love you so very much, but you need to do some serious growing up. You act like you think you are so mature and can handle anything, but you are still just a kid at heart. You are allowed to be young, that isn't a crime, but you have to realize that you don't get to control what I do. I am not your child or you inferior, it would do you well to realize this. If you need help or something, don't act like it is supposed to fall on me. I'm also not your parent.



2. I say all the time that I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have you. I don't know if that's true anymore. I think at one time if I had lost you, it would have been devastating to my psychological well-being, but I think I have been able to find myself in that time. I am not saying that I love or depend on you any less, in fact if it weren't for you, I don't know that I would have gotten to this point in my life, so thank you, so very much. Everything you have done for me has been wonderful and I am so grateful to have had you in my life this long. I hope you feel this way also, but I can't be sure. there was a time that there were things only you would listen to, or I felt you were the only one who would anyway. Quite frankly, still, I think at the time you were the only one. I love you so much, but if you need to leave, you can.



3. So much to say to you, you were the one who taught me to be myself, as odd as that sounds. I know that if it weren't for you, it would have taken me a lot longer to get to where I am. Thank you for that. I hope I made some kind of impact on your life as well, but I can't say for sure. All I know is that when we were friends, we both knew that the other was there completely and I'm glad I had that. I know that I will probably not see you again-at least in the near future, if at all-and somehow, I'm okay with that. I know that if it weren't for the friendship we had, I would not be the person that everone thinks of when they think of Kathy/Gurrty. So I guess that all I really have to say to you is thanks. I know you will never read this, but this may be my only way of saying thank you and good bye. So thank you and good bye.



4. Babe, there is so much to say to you. I care about you more than either of us probably know, but sometimes I would like to murder you, in fact lots of times I would like to murder you. You have made choices in your life that you have to deal with. I'm not saying that the choices you made were bad or good, but you have things that happened because of them that you have to deal with, it is not my job to. You can ask me to help you and I will you know that, but I will not tolerate it being expected. You know that if you ask, you will get as much as I can give you, but you have to ask. I would really like it if you asked.



5. I haven't talked to you in over a year. Quite frankly, most of the time, I haven't wanted to, but at times I have missed what we used to have together. At one point, I considered you one of my closest friends, a feat not easily achieved. Thanks to you, it has become that much harder. You think that our falling out had so much to do with other people, when it was all you. I've tried to tell you this, but it isn't something I can verbalize well. I wish nothing bad in your life, I just hope our paths no longer cross. I wish you well, though you are no longer someone I would like to see.



6. I don't think you'll ever know how much you mean to me. You took care of me when no one else seemed to want to. You are an inspiration to me, you really are. I know there are lots of troubles in your life, but you are never drawn down because of it. Someday what you deserve will find you. I hope that day is soon. You deserve the world and I hope you get it. You are the one who is amazing, there are a lot of us who know that already, but sometimes I don't think you do. Hon, you are wonderful and one of the most beautiful women I have ever known. I love you.



7. There have been so many times in my life that I have hated you, not just anger, but hate. You have not lived the life you wanted, Not once have you said that, but I have felt that. The problem is that you take it out on those that you are closest to. Just because you are not where you want to be does not mean you need to take it out on others, you are in control of your own life whether you believe it or not. I hop you realize this. I don't know if I love you, but I care about you and want to see you happy.



8. You have so many issues, I don't know where to begin. You hide from everyone, but portray this open and outgoing person which, somehow, few people are able to see through. I think that's the way you like it, though. Sometimes I wonder if you are going to end up the crazy cat lady and it scares me to think that someone I care about so much has that potential. I don't think you have a lot of potential for that, but I think it's there and that is kinda creepy nonetheless. You need to start to open up and depend on people more. Some of the closest people in your life have no idea who you really are and that's sad for them because you really are truly special. You need to take better care of yourself, something that others think you are already doing oddly enough. Rely on people to help you, there are some people who will help you and they are probably in the room with you when you are reading this. Let them help.



9. I don't know what to do with you. I love you so very much, but I can't let myself. I have been let down by love and friendship so many times that it scares me to start it again. I know that I've known you for a while now and I should know better, but you don't seem all that different a lot of the time. There's something about you, though, that keeps me coming back to you. I'm not entirely sure what it is, but I'm glad I have you in my life, for whatever time you will be here. I love you a lot, I just don't know if I want to let you know that. I'm sorry, it's just really hard for me sometimes. I really am sorry.



10. Hon, you are such an amazing person. Having you in my life is like adding a member of the family I never wanted, but am really happy showed up. You are a wonderful friend, a great parent, and an excellent human being. You have flaws, we all have flaws, don't worry, in the end, you will win, I promise. You make everyone around you feel worthy to be in your presence and that makes a hell of a difference in my attitude, at least. When you are around, I feel like I have someone who has got my back no matter what. There are so many quotes that make me think of you. A true friend walks out; hold a true friend with both hands; I think I should stop now, but you have been so good to me that I just needed to say it, even if you'll never know this is for you. It had to be said.



Sorry it was so long, I actually shortened it to 10 people from 15.



Oh and PS, one of them is to me. Jus so you know

I saw King Kong...with Cindy and Tisha and Kelly...that was fun...actually it was, lol

I'm really mean, but all I could think was wow, She's really not attractive...sorry Cindy, but it's true, plus she only said...3 words? I'm sure she was afraid of me and Kelly, but who isn't? Oh well...

I liked the movie, it was kinda long, lots of stuff could have been cut out, but you have to love the uncircumsized penises, am I right guys?

I saw King Kong...with Cindy and Tisha and Kelly...that was fun...actually it was, lol

I'm really mean, but all I could think was wow, She's really not attractive...sorry Cindy, but it's true, plus she only said...3 words? I'm sure she was afraid of me and Kelly, but who isn't? Oh well...

I liked the movie, it was kinda long, lots of stuff could have been cut out, but you have to love the uncircumsized penises, am I right guys?