I just read jess' blog, damn, i was hoping i would get to keep her present, lol, no im serious, but now i have to call her and exchange...damndamndamn, jk, jess, lu

The last two days have been fun...and weird.

I went to mom's sister's house for christmas eve festivities, I had a lot of fun once we started playing a board game because I was able to get to know people a little more (dan's gay) and it was cool. Mom brought me a present to open, which was really cute and her sisters got me stuff, too, which was completely unexpected and really sweet of them, they were/are great.

Mom got me some really cool stuff for christmas, thank you, mom, for making me feel like a part of the family, it's nice. She got me this really cool two tier chandelier candleholder, very cool and an oil burner...thing very cool.

So the weird part, my mom got me stuff, which isn't really the weird part, well, it kinda is, but not really, anyway, I went to her house because I wanted to exchange gifts and junk, then I was informed that my aunt had invited me to her house...just to refresh, she wasn't talking to me...haven't talked to her since the sunday after thanksgiving, but I was like, ok, I'll go since she made the effort to invite me, though the reason she wasn't talking to me had nothing to do with her, whatever. Strange, but she got me a really cool jade necklace (maybe I should rephrase that) She got Missa and I a really cool jade necklace, as long as missa doesn't lose it!

Hi Shumppie!! *waves* hehe, you're a superdyke!! That's really funny, actually, but it's cuz a while back when you sent the former lancerites the article about the lancer I posted it in my blog, though you probably read that, not that I'm sure you're still going to read this or not. Whatever, if you do, you do, if you don't, I just wasted a minute of my life typing to someone who isn't reading this!


I do believe that was all I had to say.....LISA CAME BACK!!! I missed her, we're going to try to go to tml the weekend they are back, cuz she leaves again on the thirteenth, this, by the way is an open invitaion to all those who read my blog, know lisa, and would be able to come, just so you know.

ttyl, guys!

So I've decided that I need to call Cindy and talk about whether or not she's still (or again) queer....I just need to get the balls to do it. I would really like to go out with her again, I had such a good time when we were together last time.....Danny? Help me get the balls to ask her out

This is life, not heaven, you don't have to be perfect.--photographer, Gia


friday was fun, not as many people showed up as I thought would, but I had fun.

Afterward, Amanda came over and then nicole came over with yasmine and jon, we talked for a while, then matt called and i told him to come over, keep in mind this was nearly 2 in the morning. Nicole and Yasmine and Jon had been planning to go, but when Matt got there, we all started talking and we were all up until after four. It was a lot of fun, and really the first time I've ever had a chance to talk to Yasmine, I like her a lot, she's really cool. So Nicole, if you don't grow some balls and ask her out, I just may have to for you, ok? Like she even reads this anymore, lol.

Anyway, Saturday we went to TML (we being jess, danny, sarah, and *sigh* Cindy), hella fun times, I'm actually leaving in a bit to go see it with missa and steve, matt was supposed to come but he had to ditch us for his brother-in-law or something. It makes me sad, cuz i was going to take his tml virginity away, maybe some other time, i guess.

Can I just tell you guys how much I wanted to jump Cindy at tml?? She's so fucking hot, I swear. I should talk to her and see where she stands on the whole thing because I would really like to go out with her again, you know? I miss her a lot, granted, I would be happy with her as a friend as well, but I-to quote jess last night-"need to tap that" lol. so fucking hot. Danny was like, damn, she looks even more like allyson hannigan (sorry, im sure i spelled her name wrong you buffy fans)

....sigh....

oh and we gave sharon and jay the pic from windmilled that we took with them, jay was all like...k? but sharon was all excited and came over and talked to us and stuff!! She's so hot!! Logan was there, poor jess nearly cried until she realized that 1)Logan is hot and watching her make out with sharon is hot and B)Sharon is happy so she's happy for her.

I'm gonna get going, missa and steve should be back soon, so i get to see how hot sharon is tonight!

strong>This is life, not heaven, you don't have to be perfect.--photographer, Gia


friday was fun, not as many people showed up as I thought would, but I had fun.

Afterward, Amanda came over and then nicole came over with yasmine and jon, we talked for a while, then matt called and i told him to come over, keep in mind this was nearly 2 in the morning. Nicole and Yasmine and Jon had been planning to go, but when Matt got there, we all started talking and we were all up until after four. It was a lot of fun, and really the first time I've ever had a chance to talk to Yasmine, I like her a lot, she's really cool. So Nicole, if you don't grow some balls and ask her out, I just may have to for you, ok? Like she even reads this anymore, lol.

Anyway, Saturday we went to TML (we being jess, danny, sarah, and *sigh* Cindy), hella fun times, I'm actually leaving in a bit to go see it with missa and steve, matt was supposed to come but he had to ditch us for his brother-in-law or something. It makes me sad, cuz i was going to take his tml virginity away, maybe some other time, i guess.

Can I just tell you guys how much I wanted to jump Cindy at tml?? She's so fucking hot, I swear. I should talk to her and see where she stands on the whole thing because I would really like to go out with her again, you know? I miss her a lot, granted, I would be happy with her as a friend as well, but I-to quote jess last night-"need to tap that" lol. so fucking hot. Danny was like, damn, she looks even more like allyson hannigan (sorry, im sure i spelled her name wrong you buffy fans)

....sigh....

oh and we gave sharon and jay the pic from windmilled that we took with them, jay was all like...k? but sharon was all excited and came over and talked to us and stuff!! She's so hot!! Logan was there, poor jess nearly cried until she realized that 1)Logan is hot and watching her make out with sharon is hot and B)Sharon is happy so she's happy for her.

I'm gonna get going, missa and steve should be back soon, so i get to see how hot sharon is tonight!

for all you drunks....hahhah and you can enjoy even if you are not...this is hilarious, but let's face it, if you read my blog, you're probably a drunk because that's just how I managed to pick 'em!

1 cup of water
1 tsp baking soda
1 cup of sugar
1 tsp salt
1 cup of brown sugar
lemon juice
4 large eggs
1 cup nuts
2 cups of dried fruit
1 bottle Jose Cuervo Tequilla


Sample the Cuervo to check quality.


Take a large bowl, check the Cuervo again, to be sure it is of the highest quality, pour one level cup and drink.


Turn on the electric mixer...Beat one cup of butter in a large fluffy bowl.


Add one teaspoon of sugar...Beat again.


At this point it's best to make sure the Cuervo is still OK, try another cup ...just in case.


Turn off the mixerer thingy.



Break 2 leggs and add to the bowl and chuck in the cup of dried fruit, Pick the frigging fruit off floor... Mix on the turner. If the fried druit gets stuck in the beaterers just pry it loose with a drewscriver.



Sample the Cuervo to check for tonsisticity. Next, sift two cups of salt, or something.



Who giveshz a sheet. Check the Jose Cuervo. Now shift the lemon juice and strain your nuts. Add one table. Add a spoon of sugar, or somefink. Whatever you can find.



Greash the oven. Turn the cake tin 360 degrees and try not to fall over. Don't forget
to beat off the turner. Finally, throw the bowl through the window, finish the Cose Juervo and make sure to put the stove in the dishwasher.




CHERRY MISTMAS

So my party is drawing nearer and I'm really excited. Cindy's coming!!! I am super excited about that because I really miss her, you know? She was and IS great. I don't care how much she reminds Jess of Jess. I got a camera so that I can get some pictures with everyone, cuz I don't have any of most of them. I told Cindy that I got a camera and she was like SO DID I!!! So that's cool, at least we're on the same wavelength!

I'm not sure if things will be awkward, I hope they won't, but only time will tell, right? Fun times!

Ummm...I thought I had something else to write, but I'm drawing a blank...damn!

Oh, Jess, are we on for Saturday at TML?? Cuz if we go sunday, their price is dropping to just the roll of a die (their original price) I don't know if this is a permanent change, but either way, let me know, K?

That wasn't what I wanted to say, though, there was something else...idk...I'm gonna get the pics on a disc so that I can post them here, I love that I can do that, it's so cool!! Fuck Livejournal, blogger kicks ass!! Though that is not saying anything against anyone who has lj, just in general, blogger's better.

Whatev, if I remember what I was going to say, I'll post later...

2004 - The Year In Review

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Got drunk, slept with a boy, fell in love, got a piercing not in my ear, voted against the president, got drunk over the result of voting, got a cell phone, started working in a floral area and had (will have) a sex toy party

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don't make them, I see no point.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? no

4. Did anyone close to you die? no

5. What countries did you visit?
Just the grand old U.S. of A.

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? My own place and a car

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? October 5th, that was the day I found out that while I was not good enough to live at my aunt's anymore, my brother was

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Sadly, I don't think I have done anything worthwhile this year...I really need to get back to school

9. What was your biggest failure?
Well, it wasn't my personal failure, but Bush winning the election. I felt like the whole country failed that one.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? no

11. What was the best thing you bought? If i get it before the end of the year it will be the they might be giants 20 year anniversary cd

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Kelly's, she's become so much of a better person this year, she is starting to really know who she is and I think that's a really good thing for her

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Anyone who supported the Federal Marriage Amendment, also my family, not that it matters anymore because I have been exiled from them.

14. Where did most of your money go? The student loan I'm paying off because I can't afford school, an insurance payment from my accident when I didn't have insurance, my credit card bill, and my cell phone

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? I don't really want to say, but a few of you know.

16. What song will always remind you of 2004? Any song from Flood, a they might be giants cd, while it wasn't new this year, it was definitely the soundtrack for it.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? A little sadder, honestly

ii. thinner or fatter? a little thinner

iii. richer or poorer? poorer, but that will (hopefully) change soon

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Working

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Being upset when people turned out not to be who I thought they were, that happened a lot this year with some really close friends.

20. How will you be spending Christmas? I honestly have no idea and really it doesnt matter all that much

21. Did you fall in love in 2004? Yes.

23. How many one-night stands?
None. I've never had a ONS.

24. Your favorite TV program.
Family Guy, the Daily Show, Drawn Together

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Nope

26. What was the best book you read?
"Wake Up, You're Liberal!" by Ted Rall

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Frou Frou, the Shins, the Postal Service

28. What did you want and get? a group of people that I can truly call family and know that it means what family is supposed to mean, it has become a mix of people who are and aren't related to me

29. What was your favorite film of this year? Spongebob was great, but Anchorman was close

31. What did you do on your birthday? I worked. My mom got me a fruit plate instead of a cake and I remember thinking, wow, maybe she is trying to be the mom she's supposed to be...we know how that turned out

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
President John Kerry.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? I'm becoming a little more girlie, but basically, jeans and T's are still my thing

34. What kept you sane? Danny, Mom, Jennifer, Missa, and Kelly, without them, I don't know that this year would have been very good at all. Also TMLMTBGB, cuz no matter how you feel, you go there and everything's better

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? While I'm not big on celebrities, I have to say that Johnny Depp was really hot, but he always is...also Spongebob, I'm sorry, but I have a thing for him, OK?

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The damn Federal Marriage Amendment. People are so disgustingly hateful.

37. Who did you miss? I missed Cindy and some of the Dominican people, also this year I've really started to miss some of my grammar school teachers

38. Who was the best new person you met? Probably Tammy, don't take that to heart, though babe, I think you may be the only new person I met this year

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004. Lock the door

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Baby, can't you see
I'm calling
A guy like you
Should wear a warning
It's dangerous
I'm fallin'

There's no escape
I can't hide
I need a hit
Baby, give me it
You're dangerous
I'm lovin' it

Toxic--Brtiney

I just thought this was great, I haven't gotten a random conversation in a while, who knew it would come from an old person?? jk, I know you read this!!

theehotmama: quit spending all your time on the internet and get a job!! lol
dirrtygurrty: shut up
theehotmama: lol
dirrtygurrty: loser
dirrtygurrty: im playing games with steve
theehotmama: yeah at least i HAVE a job
dirrtygurrty: word games
dirrtygurrty: to improve my vocabulizary
theehotmama: mm hmmm
dirrtygurrty: its true
theehotmama: so u can be edumacated
dirrtygurrty: exactamaly
theehotmama: lmao
dirrtygurrty: silly mom
theehotmama: yep
theehotmama: bye
dirrtygurrty: bye

Don't put a restraining order on God
by David Batstone

In Cupertino, California, a public school teacher ignited a cultural powder keg this semester when he supplemented the standard-issue history book with materials backing up his contention that religion was central to the founding fathers.


In New York City last week, several major television networks banned a paid advertisement produced by the United Churches of Christ. The commercial features a core value of the UCC church - that it welcomes with grace all people into its community regardless of an individual's background.


These recent, high-profile events give us a clear view into the often muddled moral values debate that rages from shore to shore in America today. They show both cultural conservatives and cultural liberals using the same arguments to restrict public conversation. More pointedly, each side of the polar (as in cold...war) divide is happy to ban a message from the public square if that message does not align with its own cherished beliefs.


I expect a spirited debate from both ends of the spectrum, so better to address the assumed frontline counterattacks. Liberals claim they are upholding the cherished separation of "church and state" when they put a restraining order on God from entering public schools. The Constitution, however, nowhere stipulates that religion should be deemed a taboo subject in public life. The state (and by extension public schools) is prohibited from the establishment of religion, indeed. But that's a far cry from outright exclusion.


Steven Williams wants to teach his fifth-graders how deeply Christian values shaped early America. So he passed out to his class William Penn's "Frame of Government of Pennsylvania" in which Penn wrote, "Government seems to me a part of religion itself, a thing sacred in its institution and end."


Talk about crossing the church-state wall! With that kind of pedigree, we should kick Pennsylvania out of the Union posthaste. Wait a minute, put Delaware on that list as well. A list of religious clauses in the 1776 Delaware state constitution requires officeholders to "profess faith in God the Father, and in Jesus Christ His only Son."


To ban any reference to religious conviction in the early history of America would be rewriting history. So that's ridiculous. But the complaint goes deeper in the Cupertino case, because Williams is a practicing Christian who wants his students to realize that faith in God continues to be an important element in government. A parent of a student at the Cupertino school complains, "This is not about teaching history, this is about indoctrination."


I honestly do not know if Williams is directly proselytizing in the classroom. I bet not, though I would not be surprised if he hopes that a seed of faith might be planted in his students' lives. For most secularists, it does not matter. Any teaching about religion in history or contemporary life is akin to "indoctrination."


Cultural conservatives likely are standing atop their chairs cheering at this point. But why don't they apply that same enthusiasm to defend the right of the United Church of Christ to proclaim its message on national television? It's because they are no less interested in legislating their own narrow stream of moral values. They, too, want all Americans to be converted into their own image.


After reading all of the hype about the "controversial" commercial, I went to view it on an Internet site. I was totally shocked at how innocuous it was. In my opinion, it also captured the gospel stories of Jesus accepting into table fellowship those very people that his society deemed as "unclean." Like it or not, UCC theology and ethics has a firm grounding in the biblical tradition of grace and freedom.


The commercial does not address gay marriage as much of the conservative media would lead you to believe. It does not even address the gay lifestyle, beyond showing two men who fit the stereotype approaching the church steps and being turned away by a bouncer. At another point, two women standing together smile broadly at the camera. I suppose that's the offensive "lesbian" moment.


But even if the United Church of Christ did promote more directly its theological position that God blesses gay people, even to marriage together, is that sufficient reason for censoring its message? I hope you agree with me that it is not, for I would like to reserve that same open platform for other faiths and other values. Surely, we could all come up with extreme, destructive viewpoints that do not merit public access, whether they offer divine justification for their values or not (the KKK comes to mind). But that's not the case here.


Maybe the toughest challenge of living in a democracy is to respect the freedom of other people to live according to values that are not your own. Real freedom, however, does not thrive in a moral vacuum (the ardent secularist) or a moral straightjacket (the ardent theocratic). What does my ideal of democracy look like? I can sum it up in a single sentence: A person arrives at faith freely, practices it openly, and uses dialogue with others about their own life path to deepen their understanding.
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Now, we all know where I stand on the god thing, but I genuinely thought this guy had a really good point.

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stolen from tammy

So I had the interview at Wildfire Harley Davidson today, it seemed to go pretty well. I stopped at Jewel afterward to tell my boss how it went because I told her I would. Neither of us want me to leave, so hopefully i can do both, I don't see how we won't be able to, though, so it should be fine. She actually told me about another place that was hiring, which was really cool of her. She said that the Empire carpet near Entemenns (sp?) was hiring for phone operators at like $10 an hour (full-time), so I went over there and applied there as well. I really hope that I get something soon, I hate being the girl who's living with the people.

I have been this girl for, what 3 years now? I hate it. Don't misunderstand, I love mom and dave, but I wish I could have a place where if Kelly needs a place to crash for a week, I have it, or if my mom starts acting like a fool again, she can stay with me until she decides to go back, thereby passing up the obligatory Jan's house step. I don't know, I'm just a little depressed lately I guess. It'll pass, though, so I'm not too worried. :-P

On a lighter note, I'm going to Tammy's this weekend! I already have some (almost a whole litre of) vodka, so there is some of it covered, lol. I miss her a lot, I miss...I don't know.

i think thats pretty much it, so i love you all!!!

So yesterday the plan was for Me, Danny, Cindy, and I had invited Nicole, Yasmine, and Mike, to go to TML, Steve and I went. I was ok with it because he had never seen it and it's always fun bringing virgins!! It ended up being hella fun because it was the anniversary special (16 years) and 11 of them were ther, Bilal, Chloe, Noelle, Kristie, Genevra, Jay, SHARON!!!, Dean, Dina, Jonathon, and Ryan (unfortunatly fully clothed). On top of that they did their favorite plays from the year, so Jonathon did his "the political is personal" a song about how all politicians shit and it's our job to decide "who is just shitting, and who is simply full of shit", Genevra did her one about britney and christina and her being bi, and sharon (looking majorly hot, i might add) did one called ask AGay there was an intro and outro song "if ya wanna know, ask your favorite homo" it was hot
I want sharon's shirt, not her actual shirt (but that would be hot) cuz it was blue with red writing and on the front said SUPERHERO and on the back said CAPE i thought it was great
steve thought sharon was hella hot too


bad news jess. she's been with her girl for 4 years, i dont think you have a chance. sry

i saw the jewish lesbian teacher from my grammar school at MY JEWEL yesterday!!!! i was just walking back to the breakroom and im like...MS DEUTSCH?!?! We talked for a while, her ladyfriend had just lost her father and they had buried him earlier that day, so not the best circumstances, though i was so happy to see her. it makes me sad that technically i dont know she's queer, but i think i want to email her...yeah, cuz she didnt introduce me to her friend, she was just kind of there, which i understand because she had a rough day and all, so i dont really mind. but i want to email her and tell her what she meant to me growing up, you know? I lovded her.

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never mind, nicole did, not that it matters since you havent updated since the 30th...of JULY!!!


my ear hurts, its really infected i think it's herpes (the right cartilage)

by the way, stamer, what's your blog? i dont have it cuz i lost all of them way back when and no one has it posted on theirs

So I'm a little disappointed by the poor results on my quiz, guys, I didn't even think most of these were hard questions, but I'm just sad now...















ok I'm over it now.



So after the play with jess and danny jess and i were talking and cindy came up, do i remember why? no, but jess is all, you should call her. so i did. She was a little confused to say the least, but when she realized that we had just tmled it iup, she was all "hey we should do that nest saturday!!" so danny and i agreed, sorry jess that you can't be there, but ill let you know what happens

I invited nicole to saturday. She came over with mike and yasmine and was in the back room, but I was like, hey mike, you guys wanna got to tml on saturday? he said nicole had been talking about it for a while, so when nicole came back in the front room i asked if she/they would like to go with me and cindy and she was first like when did cindy get back in the picture? and she said she would get back to me and let me know if she can come. honestly, I hope she does, its bad enough when someone who used to be a good friend isnt talking to you, but its worse when you are in the same house with them a lot

on that note, jess (nicole's (former?!?) gf) came to mom's the other night looking for nicole and was really...friendly...which granted i've never had an actual problem with her, just that she had one with me, but it was wierd. hella funny, though, shes like so what are you doing, just chillin' here?...yeah...chillin'...i got the best look from missa though it was pretty funny...i told mom later and she was like thank you for not telling her you live here, lol silly paranoid stuff

speaking of mom, after nicole left when i invited her to tml, she came in the room and was sooo confused, she was like what was THAT all about?? i was like idk, but whatev.



ohohohohohohoh guess who has an interview with the harley davidson in villa park??? no its not jo, ME!!! I'm so excited! I really hope I get the job, cuz i can learn all about the harleys and then...maybe...if i try real hard...i can become a real lesbian :)

I think that's it.
no, it's not, i was exiled from my family this weekend (family refers to the nimrods i never liked in the first place) so really the christmas list that i really cant afford was just shortened by a whole hell of a lot!!

sorry about the poor grammar, i just didnt feel like caring.....talk to you all later!!