yeah, so lots to talk about today. First of all, I broke up with Jo, though most of you know that by now. I think she took it pretty well, but what was she supposed to do yell at me? Plus, and I feel really bad about this, I WOKE HER UP. I didn't mean for that to happen, damn i suck. but the thing is, i told her the truth, i like her as a friend, as does the octet, i think, but i didnt feel anything for her romantically, you know? She kinda was like, oh, then there was this long akward silence, and she was like, so awkward silence. Idk, she was like meh, thats fine, whatever on the phone (she didnt say that, but that was the impression i got) but on her blog theres a not so happy face where a blog used to be, plus she isnt gonna blog there anymore, so i feel badly, but it was the best thing for her, if i had let it go on there would have been the pain and stuff. the thing is she was getting really attached to me, and, Nicole knows, i have this thing about vulnerability, which i probably spelled wrong by the way, but i dont like it when people get too attached, because then i might get attached. To quote someone i cant find in my quotebook, but whom i know is there, "when youlove someone you are giving them the power to hurt you" thats just how it goes.

Ok, now on friday we had a blast, aside from the me realizing i needed to break up with jo thing. We havent had a qq night in sooooo long, so it was well deserved by all, and everyone had fun on some level, coughcoughhammockcoughcough oh i was saying something wasnt i? Nicole and i had a competition to see who could stay up the latest, techncally i won because she went to sleep first, but she had a thing to do with her dad the next day, actually five hours from when she went to sleep. Then she and lil c left without telling anyone, apparently they said bye, but i was sleeping when i waved back to them. Whatever, though, it was fun.

Then on saturday danny and i spent almost the whole day together, he picked me up at like 12:45, i know you're all thinking 'the whole day?' but i woke up at 10, so it was like the whole day. we bought cards for people's parties, i gav nicole waters a sympathy card instead of a graduation card, cuz it is funny. i was going to buy a card for nadia that said something about a special boy, but i couldnt find an envelope to fit, damn you factory card outlet, damn you! we went to waters' party played some volley ball, but then everyone stopped, so jess and i were playing, but it was more of a hit it over catch it hit it back kind of game. fun anyway. but then jess left and no one wanted to play, so we were bored, we went to go to adam's but couldnt remember the address and there were no ballons or anything signalling there was a party on the front of his house, so we went to nadia's for a few, no one was there yet either, with the exception of jess, wait, no, nobody was there. Jess gave us the address and followed danny and i to adams which was funny cuz danny cant take directions at all, i love him though he knows that, dont you suzyn? adam had a gimpy volleyball net and ball, so we played there for a while then it got boring, so we lied down (hehe) and talked, then we heard some karen stuff we didnt want to hear, so yeah it was creepy. We went back to nadias, oh all the while i was talking to jess and suz about jo, cuz i knew what to do, but i needed otheres to agree with me, you know, to quote someone i can find in my quotebook. erica Jong said "advice is something you ask for when you know the answer but wish you didnt" but i didnt want to call jo until i had talked to nicole, she always seems to make it better, or at least comfort me, idk we have a weird relationship, but after i talked to her (when we went back to nadias and danny left me there) she decided to come to nadias, i called jo while she was on her way, nadia was all man, i want to hear the breakup because i walked around the block instead of staying in the park with her and everyone there. that was pretty much saturday, no im lying, nadia forced me to watch 8 mile, though i only saw up until the part i had alreaady seen before nicole came and picked me and lil c up. ty nicole for saving me

then sunday i worked, damn work. but when i got home i saw that suz had called me, i called him back but his phone was off, stupid cell phones, if you hve one, dont turn it off, unless youre in a movie theater or something like that. when he called me he was brining curt home, so i told him he had to see finding nemo so he would get the squishy joke (jess named my hampster squishy, and quoted the movie while doing so) he said he didnt have money i said id pay then curt seemed depressed cuz we didnt invite him and i was like suzyn i love curt, invite him. we saw the movie and now curt is afraid of the ocean, but what are ya gonna do right?

ok happy now suz? i love ya enough to blog this freaking much.

she who blogs last blogs most (not a song, but a good quote nonetheless)

p.s. as a side note, you can now comment on my blogs, do so at will