first of all the only mistake that i said i made was going out with julie so soon after cindy because i was not, i repeat NOT over her. secondly, i should not have gone out with julie because we were not right for each other, i dont mean to offend anyone, but this is how i feel about the relationships:
cindy, i really did care about you, quite frankly, i still do, but i dont understand why you were upset at my dating someone so quickly when you were the one who wanted to break up with me and that is why we even talked about it in the first place

julie, i am sorry that i hurt you, but you knew when you were going into it that i was not over cindy, that was not a secret. Because i still cared as much as i did about cindy at the time, the relationship was doomed to begin with, but if you ever feel like it, im sure jess would be up to a date since she thinks you are hot and all.

i would like to close with this:
I am NO longer going to be explaining myself on my blog because it is MY blog, i made it so that i could write what i wanted to whomever i wanted (or to whomever i didnt want and wanted to rant about) my blog is like my diary and my way of communicating with my friends at the same time, as you can tell, however, i have not been able to blog very much lately and that is ok, because the people i care about i talk to and they know what is going on with my life. If you are offended by something i write, thats too bad, this is where i rant, whether i mean it or not at the time is irrelevant, we all say things we dont mean when we say them, i sometimes blog things i dont mean, case in point i have yelled at nicole and jess a number of times on my blog and never worried about it because we fiigured out what the real problem was and fixed it. if there is a real problem, instead of yelling at me, fucking call or email me, you all have that, at least, and if not you can post it, but i dont appreciate being yelled at on my own blog. on the other hand, however, i am glad you all feel it is your duty to tell me shit, but quite frankly, if you are planning on posting shit, put your name or i am not going to take it seriously anyway, on top of that, i can see that many of those anonymous posts came fome the same computer as ones with names on them just a few minutes before or after it, so way to go on protecting who you are. and if you are all going to use cindy's computer, put your name, otherwise i dont give a shit.

thank you for listening to my rant those of you that i love!!

ps jo, i love you hon, give me a call, i miss ya, babe

pps its not about the sweater, they are obviouslyt not so stylish that they are the only things i wear, it was about being there at eleven and specifying which sweatshirt and adding a new one i didnt know i had, i dont give a shit about the clothes-i have plenty-and i have about a hundred fucking sweatshirts (which is probably why i did not know i had yours to begin with)