havent posted in a while, im worried about my relationship, cindy is doing the i'm-going-to-push-you-away-before-either-of-us-gets-too-close-and-then-hurt thing

on a side note...there is this really cute, semi-dykey girl who is a techie for the play im in...i practically drool over her most of the time, guys yell at me, i have cindy..sort of..i dont know what's going on anymore

grr...arg